Come back to bed

Lover, please come back to bed. Remember all those things you said? The promise you’s and see you soons. The beating hearts in distant rooms? I know it’s not ideal or fun But think of all the things to come So take my hand while I am near Come back to bed, I’ll be right…

Love is Love is Pain

Love hurts so much. I love love. That’s what a therapist once told me. I love loving things. I love art. I love beauty. I love people. I love love. It’s a blessing and a curse I guess. I fall in the hole of love so quickly. I miss the first step, fall down a…

Copenhagen

Copenhagen   His face, held in my hands. Nose to nose. His eyes so close. The warmth I feel, my heart stands still, and my head,  for just a moment. As if nothing exists, just him and I, a breath between us. His smile. Just slight. It’s bright and yet it fills me with a…

My Social Anxiety

I knew it was going to make me sick. With every sip I thought about my health and the following day. The risk didn’t outweigh the torment of the social anxiety I would feel turning up to a house party full of Strangers for pre-drinks. I drank so I could become someone else. Someone who…

Thoughts On Loneliness

The 8 Instructions

I’d just moved into my new accommodation after a last minute extended trip here in Berlin. It was the first time I’d been alone in a while so I sat down and opened Grindr. We all know those kind of nights. I got chatting to a few guys but overall nothing really took my fancy…

The Shop Fire

I opened my emails to do the hourly ritual amongst friends of discreetly checking your updates incase anything important lies amongst the nonsense that might need your attention. I scroll through and come across an email from PayPal – ‘Your Account Has Been Limited’. My heart sunk and I started shaking. Everything around me blurred…

The Show Must Go On

I feel a rare sense of relief when I am on the brink of being sacked from a job. I have a serious dislike for authority, and mixed into a cocktail with my anger for mistreatment, injustice, and generally bad organisation or unnecessary wasting of my time, and I’m like a Catherine Wheel at a…